urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx Liz Liz 2009-12-01T15:32:15Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:167817 2009-12-01T15:32:15Z 2009-12-01T15:32:15Z well here i am writing again, this means that something has happened. and it has. ryan and i exchanged our birthday presents for each other, i got him assassins creed two and he got me a kitten. :squeal: i wanted a cat for so long and now i have one. so just to keep everyone up to date we have:<br /><br /><b>roxy</b><br /><br /><img src="http://photos-f.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc3/hs021.snc3/10855_216247103848_728808848_4082389_1066846_n.jpg" /><br /><br /><br /><b>fish</b><br />(note: since we took this picture we have upgraded our tank to a bigger cooler one)<br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v492/hidemysuicide/tank.jpg" /><br /><br /><br /><b>basil</b><br /><br /><img src="http://photos-f.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs003.snc1/4149_121063408848_728808848_2686806_5478697_n.jpg" /><br /><br /><br />and now our newest member of the family<br /><br /><b>ace!</b><br /><br /><img src="http://photos-e.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc3/hs098.snc3/16540_241201298848_728808848_4339694_7925241_n.jpg" /><br /><br />he's a tiny scrappy little thing. fits in the palm of my hand and weighs less than 3lbs. he loves all of us in the house already, especially when people are wearing sweatshirts that he can cuddle up in. he's adorable and i love him already. and i love ryan a lot for letting me have/getting me one. :)<br /><br />unfortunately it hasnt all been good over here. we had to go to a wake and funeral over the last week, ed's dad died and that was such a sad funeral. i hate any sort of ceremony where people are grieving and its almost a bit worse when you arent family and you cant just hug them for a solid 5 mins crying. so that was pretty shitty. <br /><br />lets see, anything else i can say. i suppose not too much.<br /><br />i hope everyone is happy and healthy and had a great thanksgiving. <br /><br />lizzzz urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:167625 2009-11-10T14:48:25Z 2009-11-10T14:48:25Z the quarantine tank in our room not really sure what im doing on here again since the majority of my friends dont read this or update anything (cept you rach. my friends page is like looking like your main page haha) i said that i probably wouldnt be back until life stuff started happening and its not really. i just felt like popping in and saying whats been going on. <br /><br />work is good. i've been filling in on my days off since kris's associate left her. but now shes found a new one and thats super exciting. im not really excited to wake up at the asscrack of dawn tomorrow to get in there for 8 AM! but i suppose i can manage. if it means i get my "weekends" back i'll be happy to do it. my clientele is building up slowly but surely. last month i had my highest retail and most repeat clients. so that was a pretty cool feeling. and im also doing all the "techy" stuff at work too. taking some pictures for frank, setting up the Essence facebook page and all that jazz. its fun. im getting along with everyone too so thats a plus. <br /><br />ryan. oh god, what can i say about ryan. well, lets see. sometimes he is the biggest pain in my ass. but lately he's really been bringing his a game. a couple days ago we went to the candy store and he bought me some candy, and then we just talked and laughed the whole night. it sounds really stupid and lame when i try to explain it here on livejournal but i dont know. it was just one of those times that made me realize, holy shit im so completely head over heels in love with this guy and i wanna spend forever with him. despite the times he drives me a little crazy. haha. this is my longest relationship and i cant remember ever feeling like this. i love our house i love our dog. i love everything about the life that we have here. i even like his folks and im pretty sure that they like me too. haha. which lets be serious with about 95% of my last relationships getting along (or at the very least not feeling intimidated by parents) was kind of an issue. :P <br /><br />so what else do i do besides work and hang out at home? well not too much. we've been hanging out with friends more and we have a new roommate coming in december (shes awesome and we're total twilight freaks together. going to the midnight showing of new moon!) and the creepy weird one is moving out then so i dont have to worry about him standing over me in the middle of the night with a knife or anything. hahah. <br /><br />well i cant think of anything else to write. <br /><br />i hope that everyone reading this is healthy and happy and im sure i'll update around my birthday to let you know how that went. <br /><br />Lizzzzz urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:167385 2009-07-01T03:32:31Z 2009-07-01T03:32:31Z theres just seriously no reason for me to write in here anymore. <br /><br />so i guess this will be the last entry. i'm keeping this journal (and all my others) until i get bored enough to sift through the pointless entries (from the last 8 years) and save the good ones. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:167031 2009-06-24T15:52:30Z 2009-06-24T15:52:30Z ms annoying mcloudsex is back. <br /><br />i can maybe understand someone going back to their boyfriend after he cheats on them if he's like crazy rich with a jet and puppys and like amazing cooks and only did it once. but going back to a stoner who lives in his own filth who doesnt wear condoms with the hundreds of girls he slept with and cheated on you repeatedly?<br />she must have some crazy esteem issues. <br /><br />yikes. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:166677 2009-06-14T22:03:48Z 2009-06-14T22:03:48Z <a name="cutid1"></a><br />TEN WHAT'S<br />1. What was the first thing you thought about when you woke up?<br />well i woke up for the first time thinking "fucking dog" because she was making noise because she wanted to be let out. <br /><br />2. What is something you need to work on?<br />not being so emotional?<br /><br />3. What is the most important part of your life?<br />ryan/family, job. <br /><br />4. What would you rather be doing right now?<br />im good with what im doing. <br /><br />5. What did you last cry over?<br />the scene in independence day where the first lady dies. <br /><br />6. What always makes you feel better when you're upset?<br />reading books.<br /><br />7. What are your plans tomorrow?<br />work then cleaning the bathroom.<br /><br />8. What's the most important thing you look for in a significant other?<br />sense of humor, passion, romantic-ness. and a physical attraction to them<br /><br />9. What are you worried about?<br />the good times are going to end.<br /><br />10. What are you looking forward to most in the next week?<br />ryan and i are coming up to our two year so that will be fun.<br /><br /><br />NINE HAVE-YOU-EVER'S<br />1. Have you ever liked someone with a girlfriend?<br />yeah<br /><br />2. Have you ever had your heart broken?<br />yup<br /><br />3. Have you ever had sex in a public place?<br />yeah.<br /><br />4. Have you ever been out of the country?<br />a couple times<br /><br />5. Have you ever backstabbed a friend?<br />i probably didnt consider them a friend at the time<br /><br />6. Have you ever been backstabbed by a friend?<br />probably<br /><br />7. Have you ever had the cops called on you?<br />maybe in college...<br /><br />8. Have you ever dated someone younger then you?<br />i am right now. 9 whole days younger. haha<br /><br />9. Have you ever read an entire book in one day?<br />totally<br /><br />EIGHT WHO'S<br />1. Who was the last person you saw?<br />ryan<br /><br />2. Who was the last person you kissed?<br />ryan<br /><br />3. Who was the last person you called?<br />not too sure. ryan probably. or work.<br /><br />4. Who was the last person to call you?<br />my parents?<br /><br />5. Who was your first crush?<br />tim rowe in the fifth grade.<br /><br />6. Who is the last person to text you?<br />navy guy.<br /><br />7. Who is the last person you texted?<br />ryan<br /><br />8. Who did you last yell at?<br />i yelled at ryan in left4dead because he said something to the effect of "you're a crap player liz"<br /><br /><br />SEVEN WHEN'S<br />1. When was your last shower?<br />yesterday.<br /><br />2. When did you last see your mom?<br />a week or so ago?<br /><br />3. When was your last kiss?<br />last night<br /><br />4. When did you last talk to your crush?<br />n/a<br /><br />5. When was the last time you cried?<br />a couple tears spurted out when i was choking and a couple tears during the movie. <br /><br />6. When did you last go to the movies?<br />the second week or so that star trek was out. <br /><br /><br />SIX WHERE'S<br />1. Where do your best friend(s) live?<br />old lyme<br /><br />2. Where did you last go?<br />shaws (which sucks hairy balls by the way)<br /><br />3. Where did your first kiss happen?<br />in the back of tom briggs van<br /><br />4. Where do/did you go to school?<br />brio academy<br /><br />5. Where is your favorite place to be?<br />home.<br /><br />6. Where did you sleep last night?<br />me n ryans bed.<br /><br />FIVE DO'S/DOES<br />1. Do you like someone right now?<br />yes<br /><br />2. Do they know you like them?<br />i would hope they do!<br /><br />3. Do you ever wish you were someone else?<br />no. im pretty content with the person i am<br /><br />4. Do you know the muffin man?<br />who doesnt<br /><br />5. Does the future scare you?<br />kinda. but its more of not knowing what's in the future. <br /><br /><br />FOUR WHY'S<br />1. Why are you best friends with your best friend?<br />because they understand me and what im like. i dont have to fake it with them. they get me and love me for it.<br /><br />2. Why did you get a myspace?<br />i dunno. probably because everyone else had one. <br /><br />3. Why did your parents give you the name you have?<br />i have no idea.<br /><br />4. Why are you doing this survey?<br />i'm bored.<br /><br /><br />THREE IF'S<br />1. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?<br />i'd want to read peoples minds.<br /><br />2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?<br />yes. if it could be changed<br /><br />3. If you were stranded on a desert island and could only bring one thing, what would you bring?<br />a cell phone that would work anywhere. satellite phone<br /><br /><br />TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER'S<br />1. Would you ever get back together with any of your ex's if they asked you right now at this very moment?<br />hell to the fucking no.<br /><br />2. Would you ever shave your head to save the person you love?<br />totally. i'd shave my head on a bet if the price was right.<br /><br />ONE LAST QUESTION?<br />Are you happy with your life right now?<br />yes. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:166400 2009-06-08T00:49:05Z 2009-06-08T00:49:05Z so today was a special day. ryan and i went to the mall and while i was watching a threading demonstration i completely fell on my ass since there was water all over the floor that i didnt see. oh it was awesome. :/ then ryan and i came back here, sat around for a while, ryan went out to get some stuff from home depot then we went out to stop and shop. ha! michelle was in the uscan aisle right next to us. that was special.<br /><br />i got some good new shoes today too. thats always fun. and then some groceries. <br /><br />i wish i had more to write. but alas, i do not. :(<br /><br />lizzzzzz urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:166241 2009-05-24T19:05:03Z 2009-05-24T19:05:03Z so even though miss annoying voice mcloudsex is staying with at the house this weekend. it's been pretty rocking. i had a really good day on saturday client wise (my whole day was filled up although i only had three). one of my clients was a highlight color cut so it took a while. then i had an updo which came out so well and a guys haircut. <br /><br />then i came back here and me and ryan started drinking. i cant get over how good those smirnoff lemonades are when i mix them with lemonade. i love it. then we went to bed. i had some crazy dreams (like always) but atleast they werent those fucking terrifying nightmares again. <br /><br />lets see. what else. today we're going down to the shore to celebrate ryans sisters birthday then taco night with our friends down there. celebrating mcmanus graduation or something fun like that. ryans ex is going to be there though so im not sure how that will go over. im probably making something out of nothing and she'll be like a really nice sweet girl, but i have had horrible experiences with guys and their ex's before. not that ryans like that at all.<br /><br />:sigh:<br /><br />i dont know how i feel right now.<br /><br />day off tomorrow. yay!<br /><br />lizzzzz urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:166068 2009-05-20T02:58:02Z 2009-05-20T02:58:02Z so i dont know if it's because of the end of the school year, or because ryans dealing with his finals (im leaning more towards the latter because i've been out of college for a couple years and never really dealed with this before) im having more and more dreams where i am in college and its the end of the year and im realizing that i never went to any of my classes and im doomed to fail out. <br /><br />its weird. i wake up going OH NO! and then i calm down and realize that im not in school, im working, i did good in hairschool. im fine. <br /><br />smirnoff pour and serve lemonade is amazing. <br /><br />lizzzzz urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:165381 2009-05-11T02:19:30Z 2009-05-11T02:19:30Z so today i was a culinary wizard. <br /><br />first i made myself a ham sandwich, then made the beef stew. while that was cooking for 6 hours i made some amazing homefries (like the best evar!) then ate the stew with some awesome cornbread. <br /><br />bleh. im too used to facebook updates and twitter. its hard to come up with something more than a couple sentences long. work is picking up. i think i have a client everyday this week. im super psyched about that. im going more blond on my day off too. other than that not too much has been going on. we're working on getting the pool open which should be amazing. and ryans and my two year is coming up. im so excited. <br /><br />aarg<br /><br /><br />im tired. <br /><br />later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:165186 2009-05-06T14:15:23Z 2009-05-06T14:15:23Z pics from cinco de mayo. <br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br /><b>the dog attacking my hair</b><br /><img src="http://photos-c.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs005.snc1/2804_115468053848_728808848_2601674_7339997_n.jpg" /><br /><br /><br /><img src="http://photos-c.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs005.snc1/2804_115486843848_728808848_2602082_3576660_n.jpg" /><br /><br /><b>the point i was trying to illustrate here was that 5 fingers on one hand meant months, 5 fingers on another hand meant days. 5/5 cinco de mayo... or jazz hands... one of those...</b><br /><img src="http://photos-d.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs005.snc1/2804_115486853848_728808848_2602083_1716063_n.jpg" /><br /><br /><br /><img src="http://photos-g.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs005.snc1/2804_115487013848_728808848_2602086_1187216_n.jpg" /><br /><br /><br /><img src="http://photos-h.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs005.snc1/2804_115487023848_728808848_2602087_5517161_n.jpg" /><br /><br /><br /><img src="http://photos-a.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs005.snc1/2804_115487033848_728808848_2602088_3102105_n.jpg" /><br /><br /><br /><img src="http://photos-b.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs005.snc1/2804_115487128848_728808848_2602089_7707762_n.jpg" /><br /><br /><br /><img src="http://photos-c.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs005.snc1/2804_115487133848_728808848_2602090_7256467_n.jpg" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:164890 2009-04-30T14:40:05Z 2009-04-30T14:40:05Z so i can breathe a big sigh of relief. i got my music back. and now its on this computer and im totally psyched. <br /><br />most likely getting a new (used) iphone tomorrow. things are just looking up right now. im very happy. <br /><br />my mom also said i can have her old scrap quilt fabrics which will be awesome. i need to go to like joanns fabrics or something to go through the rag pile for the rest. the only thing i need to buy like, a good selection of will be the 9 squares the inside and the backing. and the thread. im doing this whole quilt by hand. and im very excited and nervous about that. it wont be like an intricate quilt though, its going to be an applique quilt. so it wont be too intense. but im so excited!<br /><br />okay. now to listen to my music and just be extremely happy for the rest of the day. <br /><br />lizzzzz urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:164723 2009-04-29T17:11:51Z 2009-04-30T14:49:20Z new project.<br /><br />so im starting a new project and since i've never really heard of anything like this (although i know it must be out there.) im going to make a memory quilt. focusing on me and ryans relationship :) <br /><br />but all i have so far is a cup of coffee since we met at the paperback cafe and thats where i kinda knew that he was going to be an important part of my life. <br /><br />so for right now im going back to my livejournal entries. the moments are there. i know they are. and its not like i cant think of any. but i am looking for like. defining moments. or moments that span over the course of our relationship. <br /><br /> <br /><br />i dont think that i will get bored of this project easily like the others. and i dont see it being done too quickly which is good. <br /><br />im very excited for this. <br /><br />excited and hopeful. <br /><br />lizzzzzzzzzz urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:164473 2009-04-27T00:10:25Z 2009-04-27T00:10:25Z <a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br />Did your ex give you a promise ring?<br />no. my current bf has though. <br /><br />How many times have you really truly been in love?<br />all encompassing happy love? twice.<br /><br />What does your last text say?<br />im not sure where my phone is.<br /><br />Your bf/gf leaves you for someone else, you do what?<br />cry. a lot. move back in with my parents. i dont know what else... :/<br /><br />Your ex wants to hook back up, you do what?<br />decline<br /><br />Are you ashamed of your past?<br />there are moments im not proud of sure. <br /><br /><br />Who was the last person you yelled at?<br />ryan maybe?<br /><br />Who were you with Friday night?<br />ryan and i think greg and kyle and ant<br /><br />What woke you up this morning?<br />the heat<br /><br />Is tomorrow going to be a good day?<br />possibly.<br /><br />What are you doing tonight?<br />going to bed earlish? its so hot though!<br /><br />What do you want right now?<br />this stomach ache to go away. <br /><br />Were you in a good mood last night?<br />eh, kinda. i was exhausted and a little tipsy.<br /><br />Do you think you could live without your cell phone?<br />i could but i would not be happy.<br /><br />What's bothering you at the moment?<br />my stomach is bothering me.<br /><br />What should you be doing right now?<br />nothing?<br /><br />You just won the lottery, what do you do?<br />depends on how big the lottery is. really big? pay my parents back for school, school loans, new car, some new clothes, iphone... thats it.<br /><br />Are any of your friends cheerleaders?<br />nope<br /><br />What was the last thing you burnt?<br />incense.<br /><br />Who was the last person you texted?<br />ryan i think. or my dad.<br /><br /><br />When was the last picture you took?<br />i have no idea. <br /><br />Have you ever passed out and not known where you were?<br />nope<br /><br />Are you addicted to sex?<br />nay<br /><br />What is your middle name?<br />leigh. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:164250 2009-04-07T02:20:07Z 2009-04-07T02:21:04Z so through ryan not so gently letting me know. i have been a mega bitch when dealing with people. <br /><br />(sorry danielle if i was bitchy to you when i was talking to you. that was one of the examples he brought up. i wasnt trying to be bitchy. we just really miss you.)<br /><br />i dont want to try to excuse my attitude but i've been really really pissed off lately. i've been all keyed up and tightly wound (more so than usual) some of it has been stemming from work and my frustrations there. and most of it has been coming from home. not ryan. actually things with ryan are as close to perfection as they can be. i just really really hate 1-2/3 of my roommates. kyles okay when he's not panting over demi. but put the two of them together and its like they speak like a bad drug movie dialoug. such typical stoners. :sigh: now dont get me wrong. i used to smoke. and i giggled along with the worst of them through cartoons and bad pornography, but being the dirty hippy who just constantly goes "duuuuuuude, man. i mean like whooooaaaaaaa" while listening to pink floyd (or coheed or iron maiden overandoverandoverandoverandover)just seems like such a fucking waste of air. <br /><br />oh well. <br /><br />i guess i'll just have to live with it for now. <br /><br />lizzzzzz<br /><br />ps- sorry everyone for being so bitchy. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:164019 2009-04-03T02:27:18Z 2009-04-03T02:27:18Z hairmadness-<br /><br /><u><b>before</u></b><br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v492/hidemysuicide/before1.jpg" /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v492/hidemysuicide/before2.jpg" /><br /><br /><br /><u><b>after</u></b><br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v492/hidemysuicide/after.jpg" /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v492/hidemysuicide/after2.jpg" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:163435 2009-03-15T16:10:01Z 2009-03-15T16:10:01Z gosh darn i never write in here anymore. <br /><br />im not sure what to make of that. i've had a livejournal ever since '01 so it would be weird to think of life without one. sure i still have my regular journal but i write in that even less. i suppose once life moments start happening to me (ie- getting engaged, getting married, having kids) i'll write in here more but the day to day has just gotten too pale to write about all the time. and since other people are slacking with surveys, i dont really do them anymore either. <br /><br />well. what new things have been happening...<br /><br />-i got my new computer. its huge (my other one was such a little peanut). its a widescreen and so clear. i am capable (since its new) to run streaming netflix (which i can hook up to my tv!) and it has a webcam, which im psyched about and have already taken a few photos. haha. <br /><br />-the beardie is still alive. apparently it hates girls. which is grrrrrreat. so ryan gets all the love from her and i pick up her shit and feed her. (some of the time... ) the fish is still alive miraculously. we still haven't named it. im surprised it's alive. and finally roxy. what can i say about her except that she is the best dog in the world. she fell asleep with me in bed last night and i guess at some point ryan came home (i was passed out cold) so i woke up when i felt roxy moving and she fell off the bed. lol. poor baby. we need to get a lower bed so that doesn't happen. <br /><br />-we got directtv. i dont really care for it that much. ryan wanted to watch the yankees. so now i have to learn new channels and the guide is weird and i dont like it. :( i miss dish. <br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br />because if i bottle it up i will snap and try to beat the shit out of my roommate. <br /><br />i hate demi. so much. hes such a fucking slob. he doesn't really shower. and if he does hes just getting himself wet because i know he doesnt wash his hair. hes such a dirty fucking hippy. all he does is collect unemployment and sit around and smoke pot. he works some days under the table but this whole winter. just smoking pot. i thought unemployment like... checked to make sure you're trying to get a job. he's so fucking loud too. he woke me and ryan up saturday morning at like 2 tromping up the stairs with his friend, and they were listening to music and yelling and screaming. so i told them to stfu. and they were like. uh. ok. then 30 mins later they were loud and listening to loud music again. <br /><br />his defense when ryan yelled at him about it? "liz didnt ask nice" fuck you i dont have to ask nice. i had fucking work that day. i was up for atleast an hour, drowsing in and out for another hour until his friend left and he was quiet. all day i was tired and pissed off because of it. &gt;:( i hate him. he's so loud. i can always hear what hes saying on phone conversations because he feels the need to shout everything. its especially annoying when hes talking to his girlfriend because ... i dont know if they fight a lot or if it just sounds that way because he's always shouting but i always have to hear. "dude, i do love you dude. dude, don't be like that dude." (im sorry. if "dude" was ryans petname for me i think i would slap him.) which brings me to my next point. how much can you love someone (and he proclaims his love for her all the time on the phone) and bring home skank ass girls that are screaming at six in the morning. or walking around someone elses house in just a teeshirt and panties. WHO THE FUCK DOES THAT? doesn't he or the sluts he brings home have any respect for anyone? oh then kyle. who has a fucking man-crush hard on demi. is all taking his side. "come on guys. it's 2009, dont be so old fashioned." i bet if i walked around in just my panties he wouldnt be so cool with it. after he finished puking in horror at the sight of my thighs im pretty sure he'd feel mighty uncomfy. <br /><br />blah. i feel better getting that out. <br /><br />later. <br /><br /><br />lizzzzzzzzzz urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:163147 2009-03-07T01:08:46Z 2009-03-07T01:08:46Z this is how happy my new computer makes me. <br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v492/hidemysuicide/212045.jpg"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:162907 2009-03-04T19:10:44Z 2009-03-04T19:10:44Z i love the feeling i get after i do a massive three hour clean on shit that is really really dirty or dusty. just did the kitchen. our microwave was dis-GUSTING. and now it looks brand new. i LOVE it. <br /><br />now to kill some zombies. <br /><br />peace. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:162654 2009-03-03T15:49:08Z 2009-03-03T15:49:08Z none so i just noticed that i haven't really written anything in here for almost half a month. but what can you say really when your life is the same day in and day out. <br /><br />well heres some things that have been going on, my computer is still on its downward decent into computer hell (hence me never being online anymore), but the good news is that i bought a new one with my tax return and it should be arriving anyday now. i'm very excited for it. it has a webcam so now when ryan is away on his field trips we can video chat. :) he's leaving for the gsa (geological society of america) sometime in march, which means i get to stay here alone with the roommates. NOT looking forward to that one. <br /><br />yes i still hate the roommates. demi's just an ass. through and through. he's collecting unemployment and working under the table so he can cheat the system. all he does is smoke pot and hoard our dishes in his room. and he smokes cigs in the house. something that drives me crazy because the smell of that shit makes me sick. and hes still dating that loud annoying chick. i guess she either doesnt know or doesnt care that he cheated (is cheating?) on her. but whatever. <br /><br />im so sick of the snow too. we got pounded this last weekend and it was just when all the snow was beginning to finally get in the last stages of dissapearing too. :(<br /><br />roxy is the same as ever. a little terror. she has been getting upset stomachs lately and we can't figure out why. we changed her diet over to this food that apparently is like the best for dogs, and boxers to digest. but she still gets up in the middle of the night crying to be let out and is sick in the backyard. poor baby. <br /><br />what else? i cant think of anything really, which is good because i have to go get ready for my day. <br /><br />i hope everyone is doing well and is healthy. <br /><br />lizzzzzzzzzz urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:162482 2009-02-17T15:32:12Z 2009-02-17T15:32:12Z blaaaah. <br /><br />so i think i have the flu. i get to take a remedial highlights class with kris today. and my parents are trying to tell me that i only got 100 bucks back for my tax refund. :sigh: when is life going to stop crapping on me? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:162161 2009-02-15T22:33:19Z 2009-02-15T22:33:19Z so i saw ryan one day this weekend. valentines day. we got chinese. <br />the end. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:161804 2009-02-10T17:18:33Z 2009-02-10T17:18:33Z so i haven't written in here in a while. nothing has been going on. i got ryan an ipod shuffle for valentine's day. we also got a blueray player for our highdef tv downstairs. we got tropic thunder and it was amazing on blue ray. lol. so for valentines day ryan decided that he's going to make me dinner, get a blueray movie and stay in. :) im looking forward to it. :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:161692 2009-01-25T16:32:35Z 2009-01-25T16:32:35Z "The first five (5) people to respond to this post will get something made by me.<br /><br />This offer does have some restrictions and limitations:<br /><br />- I make no guarantees that you will like what I make.<br />- What I create will be just for you.<br />- It'll be done this year (2009).<br />- You have no clue what it's going to be. It may be a mix CD. It may be a poem. I may draw or paint something. I might bake you something and mail it to you. I may knit or crochet or spin something. Who knows? Not you, that's for sure! [not me either]<br />- I reserve the right to do something extremely strange.<br /><br />The catch is that you have to put this in your journal as well, if you expect me to do something for you. Share the love." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:161503 2009-01-23T03:21:05Z 2009-01-23T03:21:05Z i havent written in here for a while. mostly they have just been little checking ins and surveys so i thought i would write a good meaty entry. <br /><br />lets see, well on tuesday it was inauguration day and that was cool, i think that this was the first time i actually watched it where i cared about what was going on. because when bush was elected i just really didnt care/ didnt want to watch. and this year it was like. whoa. history. and i know i already said this to everyone, but i cant believe how classy michelle obama was. she has such style. so many people have compared her to jackie-o in just how put together she is. <br /><br />and uh. what else? roxy is fully recovered from her surgery and is still a ball of energy. no temperament change from having her girlie bits done.<br /><br />ryan and i are doing great. we both had the last couple days off so we've been hanging out and watching tv and just being lazy together. i love lazy days. <br /><br />and work. well thats good. i had a full saturday last week and that was cool. still love my job. although its a little hard to grow my hair out when im surrounded by people with scissors. lol. but other than that. <br /><br />lol. i dont really have anything to say so howsabout a survey.<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br />Who'​s the first​ "D" in your conta​cts?​<br />dad<br /><br />Does your famil​y own a busin​ess?​<br />i think my uncles both do in monteville.<br /><br /><br />Do you have a reaso​n to smile​ right​ now?<br />im full. thats a good reason to smile. yay not starving.<br /><br /><br />Have you ever woke up next to someo​ne and were freak​ed out?<br />i was freaked out from a nightmare and was calmed by the person. does that count?<br /><br />What are you liste​ning to right​ now?<br />wreckreation nation<br /><br />Are you looki​ng forwa​rd to anyth​ing?​<br />not particularly.<br /><br />Who was the last perso​n of the oppos​ite sex you had a conve​rsati​on with?​<br />ryan<br /><br />What are you weari​ng on your feet?​<br />socks and my knockoff uggs<br /><br />How many times​ do you talk on the phone​ a day on avera​ge?​<br />less than five.<br /><br />Do you usual​ly have weird​ dream​s?​<br />all the time. my dreams are very vivid. and weird.<br /><br />Do you like your bed?<br />its mad comfy.<br /><br />Have you ever been to the Baham​as?​<br />yep. a couple times.<br /><br />What are you think​ing about​ right​ now?<br />how fucking cold it is down here.<br /><br /><br />What color​ is your keybo​ard?​<br />black<br /><br />How has this past week been for you?<br />fine. nothing special.<br /><br /><br />Plans​ for tomor​row?​<br />my long day of work.<br /><br /><br />Who are you very disap​point​ed in right​ now?<br />no one. <br /><br />Is there​ a reaso​n for your MySpa​ce song?​<br />i dont even remember what it is.<br /><br /><br />Is there​ anyon​e that you care more about​ than yours​elf?​<br />ryan.<br /><br />What song is stuck​ in your head?​<br />none<br /><br /><br />Will this weeke​nd be a good one?<br />maybe. im gonna make some stew at some point so that'll be cool.<br /><br />Have you ever worn the oppos​ite sex'​s cloth​ing?​<br />yeah. guys clothes are comfy.<br /><br />How long does it take you to showe​r?​<br />not too long. they have to be short because our water heater holds about 2 gallons.<br /><br />Is the last perso​n you hugge​d older​ than you?<br />nope. nine days younger.<br /><br /><br />Has anyon​e gotte​n on your nerve​s latel​y?​<br />not so much. no. <br /><br /><br />Last night​,​ did you fall aslee​p smili​ng?​<br />maybe. but probably not.<br /><br />Are you afrai​d of chang​e?​<br />not too much. unless its bad change.<br /><br />Is a bestf​riend​/​boyfr​iend/​girlf​riend​ or ex pissi​ng you off at the momen​t?​<br />nope<br /><br />Are you in a good mood right​ now?<br />meh. im okay.<br /><br />Are you on medic​ation​ for anyth​ing?​<br />birthcontrol.<br /><br /><br />Who woke you up?<br />no one.<br /><br />Do you miss someo​ne?​<br />i kinda miss my parents.<br /><br />How'​s your hair today​?​<br />twisted and up. thats my new all the time thing since it gets it out of my face.<br /><br /><br />What time did you wake up this morni​ng?​<br />a little after ten?<br /><br />What is on your bed right​ now?<br />sheets.<br /><br />Do you have someo​ne of the oppos​ite sex you can tell every​thing​ to?<br />ryan<br /><br />Are you liste​ning to music​ right​ now?<br />nope. just tv<br /><br />Anyth​ing hurti​ng?​<br />my stomach a little bit.<br /><br /><br />Were you happy​ when you woke up today​?​<br />yah.<br /><br /><br />Who was the last perso​n you rode in a car with that was under​ 21?<br />i have no idea, i dont really think that far back... maybe ryans younger brother.<br /><br /><br />Are you mad at anyon​e right​ now?<br />nope<br /><br />What are you curre​ntly heari​ng right​ now?<br />the office<br /><br />Regre​t anyth​ing from your past?​<br />everyone does.<br /><br />Do you know anyon​e with the same name as you?<br />yes<br /><br />You'​re a sharp​ie marke​r,​ what color​ are you?<br />black<br /><br />What is one thing​ you did yeste​rday befor​e you went to sleep​?​<br />watched tv with ryan<br /><br />How many month​s until​ your birth​day?​<br />11<br /><br />Who was the last perso​n that calle​d you and you accid​ental​ly hung up on them?​<br />there are no accidents.<br /><br />What would you do if the doctor told you that you were pregnant?<br />cry. <br /><br />Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?<br />sort of.<br /><br />Are you good at hiding your feelings?<br />yes. for the most part.<br /><br />Are you wasting your time on someone?<br />nope.<br /><br />Explain the last time you threw up:<br />i dunno. i was sick.<br /><br />Last thing that made you cry:<br />movie.<br /><br />Do you have a bad temper?<br />yes. sometimes<br /><br />Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?<br />yes<br /><br />How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?<br />like 5-6?<br /><br />How often do you think about suicide?<br />used to quite a bit.<br /><br />What is your deepest fear?<br />losing my love or life<br /><br />Do you REALLY love all your family?<br />yes. all of my immediate family.<br /><br />What do you want to believe in?<br />i believe in what i want to. <br /><br />Do you have a secret crush on someone?<br />just love ryan.<br /><br />Are you proud of who you are?<br />yeah<br /><br />Do you feel alone even in crowded rooms?<br />not really.<br /><br />What is the worst thing a person could do to you and still be forgiven?<br />im a very forgiving person. so a lot.<br /><br />You're dying in 10 seconds, what are your last words to your best friend?<br />i love you? what else can you say in ten seconds.<br /><br />...to your worst enemy?<br />i wouldnt talk to them<br /><br />Do you care if people hate you?<br />not really.<br /><br />Freedom or safety?<br />freedom.<br /><br />Think of a random person, and give them a message here, no names:<br />"just stop"<br /><br />Has a song ever made you cry?<br />yep<br /><br />A book ever made you cry?<br />yep<br /><br />Is the world crumbling to pieces?<br />pretty much<br /><br />Name on moment where you couldn't control your rage:<br />im pretty good at controlling it. i SCREAMED at ryan when he got the dog to scratch me with her unclipped nails.<br /><br />Name one moment where you sincerely wanted to just die:<br />sisters funeral.<br /><br />For the last one, just say anything you want, anything at all:<br />. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsimplylizx:161087 2009-01-19T03:09:08Z 2009-01-19T03:09:08Z so lately when i allow myself to sleep in i get a lot of sleep. like 11-12 hours. i still feel normal. and when i get the regular sleep like &lt;8 hours i feel normal too. work has been okay. saturday was my stressed day of suck. <br /><br />this week i hope is better. im excited for the 20th. inauguration day. whoot. after reading the political tag on fark i am so excited about obama (go obama!!) and so excited to see bush out. <br /><br />i feel like more and more i have nothing to say here. i suppose its because nothing is really happening in my life. we got the beadie. shes cool. we have roxy and shes... well. roxy. and i have ryan and he is amazing. but i'll try to keep my gushing about him in here to a minimum.